Be patient and brave. Do not fall into self- blame. You are different from the you that experiences the three states of waking, dreaming and deep sleep. It takes time to discover this. It does not happen in a day. It will become an experience only when you meditate regularly. Sometimes while sleeping you become a witness to your own dreams; the ability to witness has awakened in you. Sometimes while you are asleep and the body rests, you realize that you are dreaming - you are just a witness. When you have such an experience, pleasantness, love and affection, which are your own nature, gush through you.